Winter. Learning to walk. Sunlight.

Hawaii - Christmas 2018

35mm Film

Cornwall. 35mm

Wimbeldon

In the long grass. Simple pleasures. 

Limbo and some thoughts

It’s been a long time since I’ve shot a big project. Ever since Linc was born, 100% of my energy has gone to caring for him and dealing with the road post birth. I do miss having time and feeling inspired, but need to remind myself not to put so much pressure on perfecting every avenue of my life. 

Looking through photos I’ve taken over the past year - most are just simple snapshots of our family. Little moments and firsts. First smile. First solid food. First crawl. First steps. First trip home to Hawai’i. First time meeting family. My photos aren’t the same as they were years ago and that’s okay. I think the important thing, is to keep documenting. Even though this path feels completely foreign, I know it’s all slowly leading me in the right direction. Where I need to be. And right now, this is where I need to be.

It feels nice to get that off my mind and out into the universe. Put it out there. Move on. 

We shot these photos on a frosty morning in Regent’s Park. Barely anyone was out walking the gardens and I spent some time standing in the sun, admiring the dew and sharp winter light on the flowers near the fountain. Salt was laid out everywhere to prepare for the coming snow and I wondered for a second while staring at it all, what it would look like covered in white. We took a few photos of Linc and I standing in front of tree lined path which was littered in burnt yellow and orange leaves during autumn. 

A much needed walk outdoors after being sick and stuck indoors for weeks with influenza.

The fresh air was just what I needed. 

Hawai’i

We’re nearing the end of this trip back home and I’m starting to reflect on it all. I got really sick in LA and it bled into our time here in Hawai’i. Now Linc is sick. The nights have been long with him waking multiple times, crying. Nasal aspirators, tissues, saline sprays, calpol.   

I woke this morning before sunrise in our new apartment rental and we walked to the park to let Linc walk in the grass. He is fully walking now. He picks up tree leaves and long pam leaves and weilds them like a sword. I miss living here. Miss the humid, lazy winter breeze. I miss my family and the ease of being able to do simple things with them, like going grocery shopping or eating out in a restaurant. Life here is easy and so humbling. 

Tomorrow is New Years Eve. Another year on earth. I feel very fortunate to have the life I have. I find myself complaining a lot about the smallest things, but then I try to remind myself of how hard it was just a year ago. Remind myself that it could be a lot harder. That we’re lucky. We have each other and that alone is a gift.  

Hawai’i always brings me back to what’s important in life. Family. Friends. Love. Being together. Simple pleasures. Time. Nature.  

Life really doesn’t have to be so complicated. One of my resolutions for next year is to live simply. To try and remember what is most important and be happy and grateful. The other one is to live a healthier life. It would be nice to lose the baby weight I’ve put on, yes, but I would love to be and feel healthier. And that’s it. 

Just a little reflection :).